Wah, it surprises me that people actually still come visit my blog.

It's so dusty here! Full of cobwebs! *tries to clean up* xD

So many things happened, since the last time I post. Hahaha. Thinking about everything that happened within the time frame, it's just so messed up. 4 months of nothing-ness? IDK how to even say it, all I can say is, I'm feeling as though I'm an anti social. Gahah!

You'll find me at home right after college. Compared to last time, I'll sure be home around 5 or 6.. Sigh.. Class over, gets in car go back home. Oh well. Language barrier, kinda hard to mix around. Boo.

So one month has passed since 3rd year of degree started, and I'm seriously feeling the tension. Like, I wanna give up studying now it self. I don't have the confidence to go forward. Yet I can't wait to finish up and get that cert and do my parents proud. Meh..

People ask me to forgive and forget. But sorry I'm not that type of person at ALL. I may forgive but I NEVER forget. Depending how bad is it that is, cause with my bad memory I might forget.. But who on earth forgets hurtful things? XD It's my nature okay. Let me die with it, die with anger/ hatred whatsoever. I learned the hard way that, you can NEVER change a person. NEVER EVER. Hahaha... So same goes to people out there, you cannot CHANGE the way I think specially when it comes to forgive and forget part. Don't just simply come up to me and say forgive and forget la, my reaction might just be the total opposite of forgetting. 8D

Want me to change? I might. Just give me my space/ time to think stuffs out. I'm a revengeful person. So deal with it shhhs. Jkjk.

Since it's really hard to change someone. I decided not to change a person. xD Even if it's for their own good. What's the point of stressing out over someone when they don't even think for them self? People don't like to be changed, to be controlled.. So.. I just let them be, bye bye. 8D

What shit I'm crapping.. Sigh.


I went to you crying, just to be pushed away.
I needed you to say something to keep me secure.
I need not need to be called all those things you called me.
I thought everything would be fine, but I guess that was just my imagination.


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Ahhh okla enough of complains.. BYE!